Since it’s that time of the year, I made an appointment with my endocrinologist to get my flu shot. I just want to firstly say, I love this endocrinologist… and he really does seem to care about his patients.
So with that being said, it was time to go to the doctor. He looked through my OmniPod machine records — said my blood sugars are higher than they should be (but I feel like most type 1’s hear that EVERY time they visit the endo). My a1C had gone down from my prior visit, and said that I was probably about the same this time around… which it was.. only a .1% difference down. I still need to get into a better range for my blood sugar, but with that comes a hell of a lot of work.
Over the last 3 months, I have been checking my blood sugars an average of 7 times per day… which is more than before, so my endocrinologist was happy. I have been waking up almost every night at 3:30am to test, and caught a lot of middle-of-the-night severe lows. We talked about adjusting my basal rates, and adjusting my bolus more often so I wouldn’t go high after eating.
Then he noticed my engagement ring on my finger. He asked about our wedding date, and how I was doing with my planning. As a bride-to-be, I love to talk about it! Then, he said “Well after you get married and the time comes and you go off your birth control pills…” DUN, DUN, DUN! AHHHHHHH!
So here’s my rant. When the hell does everyone assume that as soon as we get married, I am going to get pregnant? How come everyone just assumes that I want kids? I mean I do and everything, but I just need to worry about myself and my husband-to-be first before we can think about us as a family. Financially, we are not ready. Emotionally, I don’t think I am ready. And on top of it all, I would still like to have my own house first. As for now, I am focused on my work, my wedding planning, and making sure we are on our feet. I am not thinking about kids, or how my diabetes could affect those kids… so why does everyone keep asking?!?
My soon-to-be mother-in-law also had a run in with a question like that. She told one of her clients (whom she knows well) that we were engaged. They too jumped for joy over her becoming a grandma…. but from her eyes, she feels she’s a little bit young.
At dinner last night, I mentioned my “talk” to my dad. I already have a nephew, so it’s not like he’s worried about being a first-time grandpa. He also seems to think that right after we get married, I’m gonna pop out a kid. He said that he gives me a year and a half after our wedding for me to be holding a baby of my own.
Ahhh.. this really scares me, and I really just don’t feel like I am — no, we are — ready. But how does one determine when it’s “time” to have a kid? As for now, I am more focused on my wedding planning than anything else… and I think that’s how it should be!